At the end

quite long time since easter for the last post... time to update u guys on my blog... ngek ngek ngek.... so far... thgs are being busy with studies and exams.... so far so good.... i had a few trips up and down like genting, langkawi... and it was all good to me. though some times we may not be agree to each other but i am still happy with the trips with the people i went with...

last 2 days my neighbour uncle wong had just passed away... just had the funeral for him today and his burial... it was a tragic for his family and with much condolence to his family...

well.. it was quite a privelege to play guitar for the 2 service, ytd and today for his funeral... because i learn alot playing guitar from him as well... though he didnt teach me directly... i still thank uncle wong alot for his patience and learn to be more considerate...

when we first moved to kangar to the house next to uncle wong, i was just picking up my guitar skills. sometimes i would play guitar obsessively until midnite and it really bothers uncle wong. he would nag and even throw pots to our house. it was quite embarassing to me and my dad cuz we had to apologize to him next day. this happens for few times and he would call us and ask me to tone down my guitar. through him, i learn to be more considerate and learn to control my volume whenever i start to play my instruments. he taught me a lesson which i cant forget. to be considerate and learn not to be so selfish.

i really wanna thank uncle wong and his family... sometimes i see them next door. though we dont have much in common but whenever they need help, they know they can always count on us. as neighbours...

ok.. i gtg now... will update this blog SOON.... asia conference is coming up.. so i hope i have more things to blog. ;)

Easter~

Day 1 and 2 Pneumothorax

Day 1

Well, i know this post is suppose to be quite long ago... however, im just posting for you info. day 1 actually occur at 4 february 2010. it was a thursday. it was a Dosage Form Design Lab. i was doing the coating experiment for the tablets. i was pretty fine that time until almost 6pm which the experiment was about to end.

Suddenly, the pain from the left side occurs which is the same as the first occurance of the pneumothorax on august last year. however, the pain was much lesser compare to the first occurance. then i started to get rest and sit quietly in the lab. i told some of the members in the lab and the lab technician.

i was pretty fine after resting and the pain reduced. so i moved on and went back. i went for CG after that with prayer meeting and i was still playing guitar. however, the pain was very minor and on and off. so i just ignored the pain. however, the pain was lost after few hours later. i went back and everything was normal...

Day 2

then the next day the pain return. however, it was not as strong as the day before. i told my dad which so happen that he came for a meeting on day 1 in KL. so he told me that he would come to my place with Pastor Lim Soon Lee to bring me to HUKM for a check up. they came around 10am and i went to the hospital for checkup at around 12pm with a X-ray. my dad went back because he couldnt wait.

From the X-ray, i was diagnose with pneumothorax and the lungs was collapsed. so they moved me to the emergency ward with given oxygen. i was examine by few doctors and the specialist. however, they could not come out with any conclusion. so they say they would give me a observation for few days with oxygen. i cant go back because it was my recurrance within 6 months. i waited til 10pm until i was given a ward in the medical ward in 6F on the 6th floor..... ==" it was very terrible waiting and not knowing wat is going on and i have to stay in the hospital. i was quite frustrated and my dad had to stay back because of me.

so that was the first 2 days of pneumothorax...

hold on...

At the edge

Sometimes is quite hard to pre-determine where you are going. like wat keith said last weekend, we should predetermine our action. PLAN AHEAD!

planning ahead is still quite a challenge for me. i would be slow in decision making as i would prefer to think few times and taking some advices before stepping out. i tink sometimes is wise to do that when thgs are not in urgent need. when time comes of urgency and important, we would have to take the step of faith out. just like peter walking stepping out of the boat into the sea without even sitting down n considerate. he JUST DO IT! perhaps standing at the edges sometimes makes us tink twice before moving into the uncomfort zone. nobody likes the uncomfort zone. neither do i. but it is when you're in that zone, u will shine.

it's being a terrible month for me, as thgs are just heating up. i would say "is just the beginning". THE BEST IS YET TO COME! huhu~ sounds crazy huh? how can i manage? well, im not pretty sure at this point. but i believe He can bring me through.

It's hard to believe sometimes when someone is not being accountable. Accountability is so much important. i learn this alot through out the previous years. however, accountability has it's own limit as well. trust will come it's way. like wat keith says "if u have problem with it, then fix it!"trusting someone is not that easy. it takes time especially for me. i would pour my thoughts to u but you may not even trust wat i say because i believe trust is so much important than just saying "trust me".

i reli hope u would understand this. i know its not being easy but i wish that trust will come it's way. being accountable is as important as it's trust. i trust you as well as being accountable. will you?

time is passing really fast. got to go for another session of class and lecture... alrite... gogogo! until next time... chaoz~

All starts a new

It's been more than 1 week since the day started 2010.. is quite a late post.. well, with the most lame excuse i have is lazy. haha. however, its going to be an exciting year and time for me. im really looking forward for this coming season of my life. there are somethings that i am still not sure. there are still blind spots and imperfection. but that is what makes it beautiful...

The previous year was quite an adventure with most of the thgs that i've experience... i treasure them all together with the good and bad. im sorry for those mistakes i've done but it will not be a block for me to this coming year. i shall not live on those mistakes but with the mistakes will i be more stronger. may be... may be i could be...

Its going a great journey with you. with all that we've been through. still hanging on. each day. each moment. anywhere but here without you... you lighthen my life. you bring my heart with joy and everyday i will look forward to be with you. yea i know is true. i rather be anywhere but here without you...

alrite... its going to be short blogs from now on.. haha... not much to write. however, Happy New Year 2010 to all...

with all blessings and love...

Joshua

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