Loving my "Enemies"

last few days was tight and busy... all because of the practical exam and the biotech quiz... practical was unexpected and i got double zeroes... quite dissapointed as i put alot of effort in preparing myself for the quiz... stuff like changing the concentration and doses should be taken very well by a pharmacist... and i guess is a good wake up call for me that i nid to go another mile...

well, being dissapointed does not mean giving up or just being negative about the results... i was disspointed.. no doubt... but at the same time... im looking forward for the biotech quiz... without wasting any much time or effort on aseptic practical... biotech shud be the next target...

however, ppl's point of view are diff as they tinks that u are in a dissapointment state and u're on ur way to destruction or going to give up... i guess that's how or which way u're looking at it.. perhaps... i should say... thgs change now... they change for a better... how much they can trust u? how much people will see the difference? i dont mind much of it... as long as i know ... im doing the right thg..

well, im not pointing to anyone or indirectly "shooting" to anyone... but people that are closest to you sometimes are the people that doesnot understand u the most.. sometimes u're enemy understand u more than ur best frens... that's why Jesus says love ur enemy.... i want to be better in the sence that... i may be able to forgive others more and love others... and in return... i will love and forgive myself...

in some conditions where sometimes when ppl miss understood or interpret wrongly of what u do and what u say.. and gives them a bad impression about u... i guess... i can only say... theres nothing much u can do... u cant please everyone.. because everyone will have different opinions about urself... i learn to accept that.. people.. even friends that hates, jealous, mock, even curse u... because i know.. that i will do that which is a sin... but i shall forgive them and forgive myself... for i know..this is not the truth that will set me free from all these stuff...

i duno how many ppl will read this post... but i felt that it is important to be able to really forgive and love the person... but i am willing to forgive and love them... with all my heart... and... truthfully... i will not even prejudice against them even for watever thgs they did against me...