don't stop laughing

some other laughing stuff... i like the jumping jack and uppercut video... EPIC!!! LOL....

another laughter

5 mins break... YOUTUBE! xD

horrifying weekend

im afraid that this weekend is the worst... i couldnt stand the time i wasted and the time i should have studied... i could have finish PRP and PP by now... bt still i havent finish ANY OF THEM!!! GOSH!!!!!! im spending too much time dilly-dally-ing....

*slap slap... wake up!!!!!!!!!!! arh!!!!!!!!! i nid super alot of ice and coffee for this coming week... i have to finish everything by thursday cuz my family is coming on friday.. i wouldnt have time to study... is going to be crazy that time.... i got to have the feeling of studyness!!!!!!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okok.... screaming is wasting energy + time....
no time to waste... chaos~

Loving my "Enemies"

last few days was tight and busy... all because of the practical exam and the biotech quiz... practical was unexpected and i got double zeroes... quite dissapointed as i put alot of effort in preparing myself for the quiz... stuff like changing the concentration and doses should be taken very well by a pharmacist... and i guess is a good wake up call for me that i nid to go another mile...

well, being dissapointed does not mean giving up or just being negative about the results... i was disspointed.. no doubt... but at the same time... im looking forward for the biotech quiz... without wasting any much time or effort on aseptic practical... biotech shud be the next target...

however, ppl's point of view are diff as they tinks that u are in a dissapointment state and u're on ur way to destruction or going to give up... i guess that's how or which way u're looking at it.. perhaps... i should say... thgs change now... they change for a better... how much they can trust u? how much people will see the difference? i dont mind much of it... as long as i know ... im doing the right thg..

well, im not pointing to anyone or indirectly "shooting" to anyone... but people that are closest to you sometimes are the people that doesnot understand u the most.. sometimes u're enemy understand u more than ur best frens... that's why Jesus says love ur enemy.... i want to be better in the sence that... i may be able to forgive others more and love others... and in return... i will love and forgive myself...

in some conditions where sometimes when ppl miss understood or interpret wrongly of what u do and what u say.. and gives them a bad impression about u... i guess... i can only say... theres nothing much u can do... u cant please everyone.. because everyone will have different opinions about urself... i learn to accept that.. people.. even friends that hates, jealous, mock, even curse u... because i know.. that i will do that which is a sin... but i shall forgive them and forgive myself... for i know..this is not the truth that will set me free from all these stuff...

i duno how many ppl will read this post... but i felt that it is important to be able to really forgive and love the person... but i am willing to forgive and love them... with all my heart... and... truthfully... i will not even prejudice against them even for watever thgs they did against me...

Looks and Love #2

in addition to the previous post... watch susan boyle... i guess she is the best example to looks and love... perhaps.. in this society we are too blinded by looks... because everythg we see is looks... and where is the love?

PLEASE WATCH....susan boyle~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

Looks and Love

it is strange, i felt at 1st... no matter how gud u are, as long as u are not in the position... ppl wont look at u.. nor even would be kind enough to be with u..the moment when u look at them in the eyes, they will turn away from you and leave u to die!!! ONLY the STRONGEST WINS!!!!

is this nature? is this just wat we are ought to be?! how can a person be alone? he cant live without frens!! but it is strange that these thgs do happen around us.... EVERYDAY!!! is this why the suicide rate is going up in our country? is this why we cant live like how we are ought to live? is this HOW LOVE SURPOSE TO BE?!!

i duno whats the correct answer for it... but whenever there is LOVE.... there is always HOPE! when we have the hope... we will cling on to it..and do what ever we can to keep the HOPE alive... thats what's diff between Looks and Love? we hate the way ppl look at us... but how we look at people? reflection of love does play how much you look at people and how u display love with forgiveness?

well, thgs are very realistic in this world... but we are ought to live out the life that is faithful and different from the world... that's our calling as christians... to have the relationship with the almighty and to be in the world but not of the world... but connected together with the almighty with Love and to love others as we are to be loved... is strange rite? i hope u get wat i mean..

with Hope and Love... we stranggle to continue to live it... breathing the last of every breath... knowing that we are doing the right thg.. ignoring wat people may tink of it... is it true? is this whats looks and love like?

Italiannies!!!!!!!!

Finally the continuous 2 day quiz was over... i can get back on track with my sleep and studies... phew... however, there is still aseptic pratical and biotech quiz next week... and soon is going to be FINALS!!!!! ARH!!! i cant stop thinking about it... makes me wanna vomit when i tink about exams now...

the past few days was aseptic theory and pharmacokinetics quiz... and it is continuously for 2 days... the week b4 when i know about the quiz date, i knew is going to be a hard time for me... the worst thg that happen is my slp... Day turns to nite and nite turns to day.. i was like a dead man walking to college everyday and depending just on caffeine... i know is spoilting my body but i could not take any advice but put my priority on my studies than my health... is stupid but when u're desperate like me... is a sacrifice i have to make... if i had a choice i would not choose it... ( i know many ppl dun agree with it.. but i choose to do it.. haha )

aseptic was ok... i could attemp the ques... but when comes to pharmacokinetics... i guess most of my energy was drained out after aseptic quiz... after the aseptic quiz, i went back and slp from 2pm and planned to wake up at 5pm... but by the time i open my eyes... i got shocked and forgotten the time and date already because it was dark and i almost tought i was blind because i couldnt see anythg... it was really scary for me... realising tat i slpt for 7 hours and extra 4 hours from the time i planned.. i decided not to slp until 10am the next day after quiz... with the notes that i didnt really had time to study yet... i was really scared... and prayed hard... immediately... went down... buy bread and 1 stack of coffee and start flipping through the notes... i couldnt really get it into my head cause i know doing this is crazy..and i would not want to see myself doing this again especially for finals...

then 9am comes... sitting in c210, i holding the paper sweating and feeling dizzy... i barely could concentrate because the caffeine was not really strong enough... i just drank 6 cups of it.. (looks like coffee is really taking me down) i focus and concentrate with every single strength that left inside my body... just to force myself to concentrate on that 1 hour... MCQ was ok... when it comes to SAQ.... Q2... duno... Q3... forget....Q4...how to derive ar?... Q5.. im sweating even more now... FORGET EQUATION!!!... Q6....is this equation same as Q5? OH NO!!!!!!!!.... Q7.... wat factors??? can i just crap?? Q8... no nid to do la.. is wasting time....

at that moment.. i almost stand up and tell the lecturer... "sorry dr loga.. i tink i cant do this ques... i not feeling well. can i resit this paper or just let it go? or could u help me? or give me some extra time or WATEVER!!!! JUST GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!!!" i couldnt take it any longer... and then, dr loga was beside me... smiling away... looking at me.... i slowly held my head up and smile back to him... he said, "r u ok?".. i said... "er.....r.......yea..... hehe..he...ehe..." then i looked back at my paper.... "OH NO!!!!!!! I CANOT LET DR LOGA DOWN!!! i cant let my parents down... this is the last choice... either i ask pauline to help... or curi tengok... (pauline was beside me) but dr loga is there............" "nononononO!!! i canot cheat.. CANOT!!.... how??HOW?!!!" then i looked around and stunned for about 10 mins.... sweating even more.... my mind STOP for a moment.... then i was blanked.... i closed my eyes and prayed.. (nearly fell aslp... ) then i looked at Q8 again.... and started to copy the ques......i copied few times... then SUDDENLY.. out of no where.. i started to rmb the answers from the notes.. and go back to Q7... Q6... Q5...Q4...3...2..1..!!! i slowly finish them... haha..but the time was almost too short.. i nearly couldnt do it... hopefully i did them correctly.. cause it was quite a rush when i rmb the answers.. haha... it was a relieve and reli thank God that i could able to answer them... haha...

MESSY ROOM!!! = =
This is how a room looks like when u're desperate... haha.. i duno how many ppl's room's like mine

This big moth juz fly into my room when i went for toilet.. scare the hell out of me... O_O

right after the PK quiz.. i went back and have a short nap... then manage to wake up and go to MV for ITALIANIES~~~~ my 1st ever to a nice restoran... WOHOO~~ great time and great place... wow... lovely place.. nice food and of cuz... good companionships... wonderful friends... wahaha.. laughing all the way home... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to HAN BOON and KAM HONG!!! =) ( sorry for the wrong day calling and wishing u, han boon... my fault mistaken... must be the caffeine effect... haha)

Enjoying every piece of the pizza.. YUM!! ( take note of my eye bags...O_O )

1st time eating raw salmon with pizza... NICE!!!! ^^

Breeze BAY~~~ Mixed drink recipe...

~~~PASTA~~~

Lastly... fried sotong with special sauce... the best i ever had...

Photo Session after makan... hehe...

then.....

is time for the BIRTHDAY.... DONUTS?!!!!

i tink is special and nice to have a different birthday with DONUTS! =) memorable.. haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAN BOON and KAM HONG!!!!

EW!!!! wahaha.. DONUT SPLASH!!

EVERYONE SMILE~!

ok la... i guess thats all for now.. haha... tml got early morning class... i dun wnt to miss again.. haha.. chaoz.. ^^

Filling up my time with Poems~ xD

everytime i write.. i got kinda stomachache one.. =.=" i duno y.. haha... btw, i noe this poem is quite fairy tale, old fashion and kinda impossible.. but just have fun writing them... haha.. enjoy~



every page of my life is you
everyday of my soul has light
i wonder if you knew
how much i missed you

even if i could just say it out
but you wouldnt want to listen
if u knew how much i want to say it loud
I LOVE YOU more than distance

Many have fall, many have fail
many to come and i shall prevail
and i shall take you as my bride
to a far away land, we shall sail

now that i am here with you
is more than i could wish ever
to cherish you and stand by you
and to love you forever

Wats wrong with me?

trapping myself against the book again... hopefully this semester i can pass all... i was tinking alot when studying in library today... guess is call "flying out" of the books... =.=" but i manage to finish at least 5 notes in that few hours in library with kuen and shereen... trying my very best to focus...

however, i was tinking of my pass in this pharmacy course and looks like i had my ups and downs.. but i duno y i was quite negative about the feeling of this semester... i felt like i was not good enough...

not enough hard work? waste too much time? not focus?

i was quite trouble even until now......

well, it gives me a feeling of giving up.. bt i know that giving up is not a choice now... im already at the end of my semester... if i give up now.. i will be the biggest fool...

promise myself to do my best for this coming aseptic and pharmacokinetic quiz... to my fellow classmates... GAMBATEH!!! =)

thats all for now gtg .... aseptic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bigger and BIGGER!!

I guess growing up is always a struggle for me. i face problems everytime suiting to another different environment. is been almost 2 years studying in KL now. things are more or less easy for me now as i get use to the faily routine. waking up early, going to classes, finishing up reports, studying for classes, going to church and CG, practising guitar everyday............

in the prayer meeting today. God spoke to me to grow up. i guess i have to take another step forward again. when thgs get too comfortable, we tend to waste time doing thgs tat are not benificial. some times losing the momentum to move forward. is like climbing up a mountain. when u reach a pit stop, we will automatically let go of our baggage and tend to rest n stop moving upwards. when the time is up, we will always reluctant to move up the slope again and find ourselves difficult to move out of the comfort zone.

i guess i got to change some of my bad habits like finishing up my reports in time and planning my agenda in details than just brief lists. planning ahead, doing things at the right time and right place, practising the Word everyday. is all part of growing up to be bigger and BIGGER inside and outside... =)

Coffee + Bread ^^

a little crazy... and a little uneasy

well... not much to blog lately.. im kinda like lazy to blog wat happen today and what happen and so on.. cuz.. i guess is kinda like diary basis than blog.. haha.. diff definition on blog.. well, sometimes is crazy to do diff thgs

talking bout crazy... i know im sometimes crazy at home or even outside... i duno whether is becuz sometimes i cant control my emotions or feelings.... is juz that i like to be who i am in some places at certain times. haha. better isolate me.

sometimes shouding out of my lungs, singing unconditionally, air drumming and dancing like monkey in different situation... is quite weird wen u tink in the perspective of a stranger but is the joy i had inside. it juz come out sumtimes... especially when im with the music i love... ^^

it is more to say that i have my own way of expressions. but sometimes when it comes to troubles and problems.. i had problems to express as well. i duno whether it is normal or wat. but i since young i have problems in communications.. may be becuz i hav bad language command and vocabs... well, im learning though. slowly.... reading...

i dont have good reading habits... i dont like reading.. but well, man hav to read... reading Bible, reading notes, reading journals, books... anythg... like wat pastor said.. READ!!! haha... is a gud thg... but i juz hav to force myself to read... i had to learn the hard way... is uneasy... =/

a little crazy... a little uneasy.. perhaps there is more than juz to be in life to be sometimes in our own world... may be sharing? ^^ it remains a ques to me...

for someone to step into the realm.. it takes nt oni me to accept but others to understand... i guess is hard for people to reli understand the feeling 100%... oni God knows... i guess there's where conflicts come from. i have to understand others as well!! =.="

Growing up is another part of life... building a block a day... shining for another day... moving towards infinity... my life... i surrender.. ^^ jus wanna thank God for it..

i tink thats all... gonna cont study for PP now... all the best... ^^

work and rest~

lately didnt have much to share when i come to blogspot... quite lost in the sence that i guess i have lost the motivation to blog.. but anyway, i still blog.. haha.. juz for the sake of releasing stress and exploding out..

well, thgs are getting tougher as we come to the edge of the semester... thgs are not ready nids to be set up already... few more weeks and it will be our finals! stretching towards another level... sometimes i find myself working like crazy.. haha.. but it is rest that i found when i work... loving in everythg i do~

perhaps there is somethg more than i can defined as "busy" or "no time". it is more than juz an excuse for not being on the duty or willingness. many people juz try to do it.. but they fail to perservere... wat if i stumble? wat if i fall? i wouldnt wanna be the rest. i guess success is always taking the path which not many ppl can take. but everyone have their own path.. it depends on which success we are going for...but some of us may be going for the wrong thgs... just like wat pastor said... we may be climbing up the wrong ladder to cross the wall... but we will not know until we reach the top... we have to choose the right ladder and trusting the ladder to bring us up to another level and to success...

i guess is not that fun when we comes to work... but lately... i found out that playing keeps me lazy and not doing anythg makes me worst! if i keep my hands on the notes or at least the computer screen on my job than facebook... at least i am more motivated to learn somethg extra by juz reading thru people's blogs and websites... there's where i found rest.. haha.

well, i guess i had to stop nw and continue doing my biotech slides... juz to add some pics and colors... ^^ until then... chaoz~

CHALLENGED 2!!!!!!!!!!

another day pass... time is getting shorter.. more and more thgs are in hand and to be done... dragging another makes another to pile up... i cant continue like this... to finish it... slp is a must to sacrifice... no time to waste.. no time to loose...

CHALLENGED!!!!! Made a effort to meet Dr.logan for the compounding thg... he agrees to be the counsellor which is a relief for me.. now left to be comfirm is the date and dr yeong's approval... ^^ but the challenge comes when we discuss about the department... haiz... too many thgs to change as we discuss it in detail... looks like the plan i did before was not gud enuf... AM I NOT GUD ENUF? i was tinking... will this be going too far already... but i bucked up... concentrating on each words he says... making new ideas in my head... building up ideas... and HOPE for a better change... letter surpose to be done by tml... looks like is impossible now... i need to sit down n tink carefully each steps to take... CHALLENGED!!!!!!!!!

weird that i was sooooo tired today... i slpt the whole afternoon around 7 hours... took me the whole day to recover from the last few slpless nights.. i didnt know wat i did but thgs are still not yet to be done... haiz... is it a waste? i hope not. wondering that there is still time for me to continue.. i didnt stop.. now is the time to move on....

made a effort to go for easter UCSI CF production. one of the reason is to attend their activity because i hav been thinking of participating in CF since i came to UCSI. the production was good... and beyond my expectation. though the crowd was to be said not as gud as last year.. but i felt the presence of God was there even though the responce was abit slow... (compare to CHC) haha... but i was having a great time watching n enjoying the performance... also glad to see shereen dancing too! XD besides i also get to meet some people... heheheheh.. u know who u r... wahaha... =X

SURPRISE!!!!!!!! it was surpose to be a surprise.. but the surprise went wrong and thgs wasnt smooth but we THANK GOD that nothing happened... is really great to see most of the people from W13 attended... Sorry Sing siang that have to lie to u about the surprise and the money for the cake... haha.. but is part of the surprise.... after the easter production.. went to Sunway to wait for Hendra... we waited for quite some time... waited at few places like batavia, beside hotel sun inn open area and medan... XD took some pics and chat chat while waiting... however, it was so nice that when eddie turn his car out.. hendra was behind and in front of rong2 car... Hendra in phone : "eddie, where are u now ar?" eddie : "haahaha... er... At home lor...." well.. the surprise was unsuccessfull... but he still surprise to see us all here... Glad to see that he is happy... haha.. and so is sing siang.. short and simple surprise... Happy 22nd Birthay HENDRA (our lovely W13 LEADER!) and SING SIANG (owl killer...eheheheheheeh =p)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok la... thats all for the day................ gonna continue study now... cant stop or will lose the momentum...... GOD BLESS!!! take care! =)

One of the funniest.... haha

take a 5min break.. and watch these videos.. they will laugh u off.. ^^





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TAGGED!!! @@

幸福點點名遊戲,回答下列問題，幸福就不會跑掉喔
1.我的大名 : Joshua
2.我的生日 : 16/03/87
3.誰傳給你的 : Suki
4.說出五個好朋友 : it seang, yi juan, jonanthan, han boon, chon hong
5.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : a car
6.近期開心的是 : everyday oso happy
7.近期壓力大的是 : exam!!!!
8.未來想做什麼啊 : eat slp eat slp...
9.有沒有喜歡的人 : no gua
10.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : ya gua
11.跟誰出去最幸福 : mama
12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : find solution la
13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : anywhere oso can...
14.聖誕節要做啥 : party la
15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : family
16.有沒有起床气 : sometimes
17.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 3 sisters
18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : many wor..@@
19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : many oso wor... @@
20.喜歡什麼顏色 : blue, black, white
21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : no
22.愛不愛我 : who r u?
23.喜歡男生還是女生 ：gurl la... duh...
24.最想大聲說什麼 : AH?
25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : dare...
26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : abo?pee on pant meh
27.誰很欠打 : very "fan" de people
28.現在很迷什麼 : duno...
29.睡相很差 : ya...
30.現在的時間 : 2.06am
31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人 : no...
32.體重多少 : guess la... hehe
33.今天天氣 : rainy
34.你懷孕了嗎 : siao ar...im guy lea!
35.你若中樂透最想做什么 : play music in a band
36.大學生一定要玩的活動 : HOLIDAY + alcohols!!! WAHAHA!!!
【點名人物】
1. henna tan
2. jocelyn tan
3. sing siang
4. felicia loh
5. xiao jun
6. wan yee
7. yi juan
8. su li
9. teong chie veng
10. kevin liew
【４號認識６號嗎】：yes
【１０號是男還是女】：guy
【 ８號的興趣是】：sleep?@@
【１號有沒有兄弟姐妹】：1 sister 2 brother
【７號姓氏】：leong
【１０號人緣好嗎】：sure... lolx..
【４號有人追嗎】：may be?
【承上２號呢】：@@
【６號喜歡的顏色是】：blue?white?
【３號和１０號是朋友嗎】：ya
【８號的生日是】：15march
【５號讀哪呢】：now no study yet
【你怎麼認識１０號的】: college
【你和９號有出去玩過嗎】: yup
【你喜歡和２號聊天嗎】：of cuz
【你喜歡和３號在一起嗎】：everyday bully me de... T_T
【你覺得７號人怎樣】：fun, cool...
【你覺得９號人怎麼樣】：caring, gud teacher... xD
【你愛５號嗎】：no gua
1.是誰傳給你這份問卷的 : Suki
2.你們認識多久呢 : 2 years?
3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎 : important as friends lor
4.你與他(她)的關係是 : friends lor
5.請問他(她)的興趣是 : lengzai... LOL!
6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : funny... out going... shopaholic... xD
7.他(她)在你心目中是幾分 : duno...
********************做麽這樣長的？？？？？？********************
＊睡覺前第一件事 ：set my alarm?
＊起床前第一件事 : off my alarm?
＊你的偶像是 : jay chou, david tao, avril lavigne
＊你喜歡的季節 : winter
＊你打工過嗎 : yes
＊打工次數 : 3 gua
＊你想去的國家 : swizerland
＊你討厭什麼樣的個性 : annoying, prejudice, kiam siap,proud
＊你常哭嗎 : no
＊你常笑嗎 : yes if no sad thg
＊去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎 : sometimes
＊是假日時你都睡到幾點 : until i syok
＊今天的天氣是（晴 雨 陰）: rainy
＊朋友和情人你會選擇 : friend
＊機會和命運你會選擇 : chance
＊你很自戀嗎 : sometimes lor
＊這問卷多不多 : wan slp oso canot... = =.......
＊要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點 : being in love.......
＊喜欢吃什么 : anythg..............
＊喜歡吃冰嗎 : ya..............
＊現在幸福嗎 : not reli..............
＊最在乎哪幾個朋友 : duno...depends.....................
＊房間裡最重要的東西是什麼 : money.....................
＊最常夢到什麼 : cant rmb le................................
＊男人精神出軌要不要原諒他 : will la.. but see when oni...................
＊你认为人生的意义是什么 : eat slp eat slp... xD................
＊你知道吗？（看你们怎么回答！）: duno what know..............................
＊什么时候最讨厌我 : every second...............................................................
l＊向往出世抑或入世，向往道家抑或儒家？ : ........ duno.....lazy to think le.............
＊你喜欢吃什么蛋糕？ : choco...........................
＊请问这个游戏可以停止了吗？ : shut up!
＊喜欢沙丁鱼吗^^？ : ok nia lor..............................................
＊谁是你的知己？ : dun have gua...........................................................
＊IQ/EQ哪一个比较高？ : er... duno...............................................................................
＊電腦还是手機？ : pc.............................................................................................................................
＊比较喜欢睡觉还是玩？ : both..........................................................................................
＊Friendster 还是 Facebook ? : both oso got..........................................................................................

challenged!

haiz... looks like the blog is kinda "dead" for few weeks now... ok.. activated again.. time for another charge up time to move on... thgs are getting packed now... moving on and pushing hard... we have about 5 weeks to finals now... thgs are getting tougher and tougher

PRP quiz!!!!!! C-!!!! i was quite upset the results.. and seriously i did my best already... looks like effort hav to be doubled... 5 weeks i have to finish them already... i still got biotech viva and few more quizes to go... COME ON!!!!

today i was challenged... i know i have to do more better.... but choices are always in our hands... giving up definately is not the choice for me now... is either taking the hard way or going the easy way bt there will be pros and cons.... taking the right path to move will determine my strength to carry on... it takes me courage... i will do better!!

ok la.. thats all for today.. hehe.. short n sweet.... up coming blogs will be more interesting.. juz stay tune.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

16/3/09

sorry i know i post it late... haha... er... kinda complicated for me to write it out... so i actually simplify alot of stuff here... hehe.. basically juz wats happen on 16/3/09 and the day before abit.. ^^ first of all.... i wana thank EVERYONE!!!! including YOU who is reading this blog.. erm... thanks for being a part in my life and making it so unperfect that makes my life perfect.. XD alrite... dun wanna talk to much here... this is introduction oni.. XD

well... saturdays pass by... we had a surprise bday action for Su Li at her house but i know it didnt work out.... =.= but still is HALF surprise... XD chon hong was studying in her hse for BIOTECH.. and we wanted to surprise her after entering her hse with her hsemates help.. but kinda mistake when she suddenly come out and "AH!!!" but lucky she didnt see me (i was in janice room.. XD i do nothing ok? juz hide) then sing bday song.. eat the ice cream cake from ali baba.. XD is was simple but i guess is meaningful.. ^^ hope u like it... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SULI... (=.=" i know is long time le.. still must say.. XD)

then sunday comes.. i was surpose to go for guitar class bt i didnt cuz gonna study for BIOTECH!!! ARH!!! = = last quiz oledi but i still sooooooo LAZY~!!! make me feel sick and whole day wondering around the room... like so free... and reli makes me lazy... but stil manage to finish the notes... but i already know that someone gonna make a surprise for me... so.. actually i expected so.. i tidy up my room.. make myself look nice... XD (ready for action already) then eve... surpose to go play captain ball with CG members.. but... raining + BIOTECH still got ALOT!! so... decided not to go...Eddie called me, Robin called me, CALEB called me 2! haiz.. den i know sumthg wrong oledi... so.. i didnt go for captain ball or dinner with them... i say i eat at home... XD then sing siang went there and hurt her leg.. AIKS! kesian her... not yet ply oledi break leg.. ish... nvm.. next time tell me ma... aiyo.. raining le... dun run ma.. aiyo... haiz... nvm le... as long as nth serious happen.... AIKS! then waited at home.. then caleb come n knock loudly on my door... "JOSHUA, U THERE?!" (so loud... normally wont do that one.... ) then i open the door... curiously.... then i saw some candle lights... XD LOL as expected but i was kinda surprise.. and it doesnt matter whether i know it or not.. is that i appreciate them making the effort to come la.. that's mattter... and i know the CG is part of my Uni life now... i appreciate their presence and kindness to come and celebrate la... THANKS! well... is actually my 1st surprise on 15/3/09.... early celebration... after eating cake at home.. we went for alibaba then come back for BIOTECH!! ARH!!! then.... 12 am... i received ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT~~~~~~~ of SMS, facebook and friendster comments... from fren and family all over...... russia to aus.... i thank u ALL!!! =)

next day at quiz... haha.... kinda no mood to go for exam or tink about any thg about studies at all... my mind was flying away in the air.. so.. i did the paper.. relaxingly...the paper was quite hard... = = but i was kinda shocked tat i didnt reli study much and memorise hardly but i can just finish the paper... althought some ques were left out... bt im glad i did my best.... then went back... rest a while... kinda tired and lazy to reply all those msg oledi.. lol... so... nap~~~~

Goin back home after quiz.... Phew~



nite... DINNER! went to NANDOs at MV... hehe... was surprise to see Su Li and Ah Boon there cuz i was not told... ^^ it was simple and nice dinner.. thanks guys.. then we went to watch DRAGONBALL EVOLUTION.. = = when i come out from the cinema... i was kinda dissapointed... the movie was kinda different oledi.. haiz... i dun tink is nice to watch la.. compare to WATCHMEN... hehe.. i prefer that kind of superhero movie more than this type... it was LAME!!! = = but anyway... then we went back... then i tot the day was kinda over already... waiting to slp after i prepare for my presentation tml and finish up my PP report.. haiz.. BDAY oso got work to do.. kinda lazy lor... then this CHOE HOE!!! keep calling me... want me to go his hse and discuss.. juz now in cinema oledi told me that i do my part... he do his part.. then he say "i wanna slp early liao.. tml presentation... " CHOE HOE? SLP EARLY?!! i was thinking "WHATS WRONG WITH HIM?!" ok la.. since im the one going to present with him... so.. better go la.. i didnt complain much.. so juz went after 12am after i wash up and clean my room... as i reach choe hoe house.. i was surprise.. "WHY SO MANY SHOES ONE?!" @@ "since when they got so many shoes... abit curious oledi.. and funny funny.. then the door was NOT LOCKED!!!! = =" thats not Jonanthan or Choe Hoe... then i called him... he straight open the door and i ask him y no lock the door. He say "just come in my ROOM LA! we discuss the presentation... WE are expecting u already.. so no LOCK the DOOR..." then i open the door.. "SURPRISE!!!!!!" i stunned........................... it was surprise..!!! reli...and i really appreciate that Grace, Eli, Shereen, Kuen, HB, CH, IS and CH will still make a surprise until the end of the day.. haha... it was reli simple and still... it touches my heart... ^^ took some pics...i like the faces... XD (sorry the pics are not available yet... i will get them and post them soon.. ) a lil of sharing... i reli thank u guys... for coming and rmb-ing my bday... TRUELY, i appreciate it.. ^^

Peri anyone?

Nando Nandos~

Simple and nice place~ ^^

I like the fries... ^^ HOT PERI PERI~ XD

Thanks~ XD

i look quite silly.. lolx

i hold the knife terbalik... LOL

the cake masuk my nose lagi.. LOL

well.... above all these... i got card from my JI MUIs... lolx.. thx guys.. i will rmb ur words and put inside my heart.. haha.. keep in touch.. jia you~ and a COFFEE MUG!!! Oh GOSH!!! lolx.. is nice and pretty... at 1st i tot is milk powder when i 1st saw the tin.. LOL... thanks to Kerli, Kuen, Tricia and Shereen.. XD RELI RELI THANKS!!!!!

Mistakes and BreakThrough!

quiz is gone... now.. the tide is low so more time to relax and refresh...i hope i did my best and get a satisfactory results! =) is gud to have a relaxing week again. and regain the strength to move on~! it's been a while since the last time i post anythg on this blog... so this one is kinda long... haha.. kinda stop myself from addiction of blogging.. i heard some people got addicted that there's no cure for it.. juz like DOTA.. anyway, i stop playing DOTA for 4 months already! xD BREAKTHROUGH!

thgs were quite rush and stuff were kinda uNoRGanIzE as it edges to the last day of my quiz... my room was also kinda messy cuz didnt clean them for about 1 week + already.. XD and clothes lining up to the washing machine~ EW~~~but i wash and clean them already.. well... for the 16/3/09... pls refer to next post... hehe...more details... haha



is almost coming to the end of the sem now and finals will be coming.. i guess this week will be the last "pit stop" for me now... because thgs are going to be more serious this coming weeks.. haiz... hopefully i wont break down even i face a small emotional problem again... =.= gonna be more stronger... ^^ anyway, sometimes life teaches more than just a lesson. it is the experience that counts. ^^ even though most of the time i do mistakes. but i rather do mistakes than lying to myself from the mistakes.. xD but we always tend to lie to ourselves and not accepting the fact that we are not actually doing the right thg... that's y the truth always hurts! =)


well, speaking of mistake... haiz... another black dot in my life... surpose to do PRESENTATION with choe hoe today... and i end up waking up at 8AM when i receive catherine's call!!! immediately.... i know... im SCREWED! unbath, uncombed-hair, unproperly dressed, unready for presentation... without tinking, i get to the auditorium in about 10mins...well, why im late is becuz i slp at about 4am the nite b4 and i was preparing for the presentation as well as completing the PP report... it was a mistake that i shud have done it earlier and manage my time but as i just said, most of the time i do mistakes and the experience that COUNTS! it doesnt matter wat lesson it brings, as long as we know wat we are doing and doing it with the RIGHT reasons and at the RIGHT time with the RIGHT people at the RIGHT place!! (thats wat my dad always tell me!)

Catherine & Felicia :"r u alrite?u can dot he presentation?"
me : gasping for air and lost of direction and abit of dizzy "no.....no... i ... didnt prepare..." (i knew i didnt prepare well so i didnt wanna lie to them, i just tell them the truth... so it will not be kinda memalukan and minus marks when the presentation was done.)

in the end, catherine have to replace me for the presentation. sitting down there... feeling SUPER DUPER GUILTY and DEPRESSED! im SORRY!!! i told myself that this CANNOT REPEAT AGAIN! thoughts and thought going thru my head... banging in between the Blood Brain Barrier and pushing through my Viens~~




WARNING: Ignore this potion if u dun understand it. Please be reminded that the contains are only temporary and does not bring any harmful meanings to others. Please do not try this at HOME!
Here's was goes through my brain :"wat a stupid thg i did... how can i do this?but is not my fault wat.. i slp late becuz of the slides ma.. they send me the slides like this and expect me to do it ma... but i surpose to prepare early... canot blame them.. okok.. not their fault so is my fault.. i shud slp early.. but it seang they all la.. make wat surprise.. until i happy till canot slp... but is not their fault also.. they just wan me to be happy person and to appreciate me during my bday. then is my fault la..i shud prepare earlier. i canot like this la.. is been very embarassing.. how to tel them? i scare they will say about me le... why tink like that, they are my frens ma... but is reli serious.. they will accept nt? i promise to do le wor... i didnt do well.. so is my fault la.. later results come out not gud... HOW?! aiks... catherine they all walking out d... follow... Catherine! CATHERINE!! y no hear me? takan they angry? har? serious? CATHERINE! hey.. sorry ar... juz now... i didnt ... present... i... "is ok." is ok? reli ok? y ok? i mean.. she repeat so many times is ok... reli ok meh? i feel myself not ok..aiks... not their fault la.. everytime is my fault.. i got to be better! i better chg... i nid to chg! I NID A CHANGE!" *the rest is private... hehehehehe




lately, i have been kinda "haunted" by those rumours of me having gf... @@is because "some people" is being spreading wrong news... actually is almost everyone.. @@i duno whether the problem is with me or with everyone... =/ but anyway, is nt true so.. i wont mind about it. well, honestly... and seriously...i will tink that i will be happy and "xin fu" IF i have a gf... but i guess im not ready YET! since the last time i broke up...there are stuff which that are nt ready yet inside my heart... from the past hurts, to the present busy-ness. i just sence that i need time and is been already 4 years but still the impact is there.. Falling in love with someone is like being hit down by a lorry and u will never look the same like u did b4... if u do.. then u're not in love... XD

i just love writing about love and stuff tat me and people around me experience... poems is one of the medium i used to express the feelings and thoughts.. i know im not kinda pro in writing them yet... but i've been reading and learning poem writing.. xD is a SECRET! well, relationship is going to be somethg more than the emotional feeling and physical touch.. i believe is more than being with someone u love... is somethg more than ourselves... ^^ not being prejudice or rude... but when it comes to love relationship, i am more racist and selective.. haha.. i guess everyone hav their own ideal partner or love life. i do have them too~ is whether u accept the TRUTH (just like wat i say) or not.. ^^ i dont mind if i am married to a indian or other races... as long as we love each other and the relationship works out well... but not for now... that's y i am not ready YET! xD perhaps i will! perhaps the love inside....... is hidden! =) ops~~~~ xD the time will come.............

p/s : sorry no pics this round.. = = all long long words and oni my thoughts... i write watever crap is in my mind now... xD kinda early in the morning (3am) now... so... dun blame me if im kinda drunk.. xD hav a nice day~

SadNess

this is a blog just for the morning... haha... sry too long no blog cuz today and tml got quiz... and MONDAY BIOTECH!! ARH!!! 3 quizes in a row... i cant stand it any longer... T_T raining now and feel so slpy... all my hsemates slping oso makes me feel so jealous.... wuwwuwuwwuwu~ ppl slping, im studying. ppl studying, im studying... ppl "pang kang", i still at library studying....JOSHUA! CANOT GIVE UP! +u! ^^ well... get to the point here.... this is a poem i wrote at 4am... hope u like it~

what brings sadness to a happy clown?
but life is always going up and down
everytime i cry, you're always around
but now that i cant hear your sound...

the flash of camera makes the photo clear
but inside your laughter there's a fear
you know one day u will let go of me
letting me go, and set me free

but how can you let go, when i am here?
everyday, you're so near
everytime i see you, i shed a tear
even though you can never be my dear

there's no words that can make u stay
you've left me and gone your way
this sadness i hold, none will understand
how this love comes to end

the dream has pass and now is dawn
the rain is gone, now that i have grown
in my life, everything that i knew
A part of me will always be with you

WHOAH!

wow... its been few days since i blog... erm... kinda lazy these days huh? lolx.. nothing much change... neighbour still blasting the stereos and housemates cat still shit in the toilet... UH! =.=" quizes lor... so no time blogging.... so much to blog, so much to talk.. well... start with sumthg during lab last friday... XD kinda fun though... ^^ i know most of the time i did mistakes during lab... im always doing mistakes like throwing away samples and affecting results, well, experiment are meant to be imperfect but expectation are always to get a PERFECT results. i wont wanna say too much about this cuz later will cause conflict! XD is diff perseption of diff individuals. im owez losing FOCUS in lab and taking thgs very lousely but im always doing my very BEST! =) no doubt, mistakes, no doubt, imperfect results, but im not giving up! i know wat i am capable of! i dont have to bother wat people thinks! as long as i am true to myself... i am who i am! =) well, thx tricia for taking the photos~! =) cheers gurl.... i love all my labmates! all very hardworking and cooperative. but after lab.... I HATE REPORTS!!! ARH!!!! thats another story...

i look quite cacat ~.~ trying to take the excess glyserin out...

these labmates dun wan listen to me la...! pour glyserin on ur head! heheheeh =P

so far now for friday... LOL... well, today went to church again becuz nid to for guitar practise at 3.30pm with andrew... (SIFU!hehehe) i didnt want to join the service again so... drop by piramid early morning at 10am to just see see... walk walk...went to buy "watchmen" ticket... then walk about see people then stop by starbucks curi curi sit.. hehe... study abit of AMT... then moved to PHC site to see see... i found that the place is kinda hidden from the public cuz is underground... but no doubt, PHC 2009 team will do the BEST for this coming event! =) all must come lor!!! PHC is just around the corner! ^^ very soon will be june!

WATCHMEN! wow... nice movie... MUST WATCH! hehe...i know many ppl disagree and say it is kinda lame and long movie but i felt it is suuuuuuppppeeeer nice. i like the way the writer decribe this movie. it is interesting to see that there is many different characters that shows different values... i knw is kinda confusing at the beginning (guess thats y ppl tinks is lame...cuz they canot tahan the front part of it) but it keeps me tinking of WHY, HOW, WHO, WHAT? and slowly, it reviews the secrets in the movie and show different side of the characters (gud or bad). besides, it is diff from normal SUPERHEROES movie cuz it is not so straight forward... kinda indirect and reality (except for Dr Manhanthan and the equipment they use for 1980s). however, it has alot of violence and sex scenes... haha...i like the effects as well, really shows the 1980s feeling and the picture was gud.... high budget movies... memang like this... XD

well... guess thats all now... gtg finish up my report... uh!!! lazy to do.. but still have to finish... and that cat is trying to shit in the toilet again!!! AH!!! i just wash the toilet today!!! T_T stupid cat.... make me feel so bad... ok la.... stop here... CHAOz~ ^^